2nd Mother's Day

So my 2nd mother's day was not exactly all I ever hope it'd be. Caleb had been having breathing issues the whole week before but the got worse on Thursday. I took him to the doctor and he had a bad ear infection, which lead to more breathing troubles. The medicine they put him on makes him crazy mean. I dreaded the weekend. And it was just as bad as I was expecting. He was violent, needy, emotional, and cranky. On Sunday night I yell, no I screamed at him. He had dumped his nebulizer treatment twice and I had it. I did not have enough patience left. I left my weekend glad to be back at work. But then I was sitting at work thinking how sad I was that I was not grateful that Caleb can get better and that the medicine can help him. I have a fairly healthy kiddo. Now I just need to find some patience.